I will reach the Summit.

Summit.
Keahbone.
Chris White band.

I am overwhelmed. I just want to be back, but I know God has plans for us here. I would honestly spend a month straight there. We might all get sick of each other, but I know I would not get sick of that overwhelming, beautiful, perfect presence called the Holy Spirit.
Keahbone is such a blessing. He allows God to speak through him and God uses him so much. My life is going to be different, I can feel it. I figured, you know after a few hours of being home I'll get over all of that feeling I had there, but I'm not. I'm overcome with the Spirit. He's in me. I read my bible tonight. I really read it. I studied it. I applied it. I actually memorized something. I started the One19 Revolution, which is Mike Keahbone's bible study. It's already starting to impact me. I just can't get over this. I think about what God's done, and what he's still doing in my heart, and I literally want to cry. Not sad tears, I don't even know if their joyful tears. It's like they are just tears of letting so much out that's been building up for so long. I'm finally letting go of so much. Believe me though, I came home and knew satan was already at his temptation games. But I have strength now. Not my strength, but the strength of the Holy Spirit, letting me know that I can do this through Christ who strengthens me. He gives me strength. I'll fall. I'll trip over something the devil sets out, but I have strength to get back up now. I have God to pick me back up. I have trust knowing that God's moving. I have faith that reminds me God is in complete control of any worry I can have.

Oh death, where is your sting? Oh hell, where is your victory? Oh church, come stand in the light. The glory of God has defeated the night! Oh death, where is your sting? Oh hell, where is your victory? Oh church, come stand in the light! Our God is not dead; He's alive, He's alive!!

My God is alive. He's reigning over us, and I know when He comes back, whether it's tonight, tomorrow, or 100 years from now, I'll be ready. I have so much love for him. So much passion that before this week, didn't exist. I just went through my relationship with Him. Some days I didn't even pray. But now, I just want to talk to Him. I just want to know Him. I just want to love Him. I just want to praise Him. He's all I want. I think about the stuff I wanted before He grabbed ahold of me this week, and I think, what on earth was I thinking? God is so much greater than this! He is ALL I need! All I want! He loves me unconditionally. He wants me to have this precious gift. Even though I hurt Him so much, he still invites me back. Now, what kind of friend on Earth would do that for you? God is the only one that satisfies. He's all that there will be. And in the end, He's all that will matter. I love Him so much. I can't say it enough. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH GOD!!!

THE GLORY OF GOD HAS DEFEATED THE NIGHT!

worth.

my biggest critic is me.

people have said that to me before. Coach Nagel tells me that all the time. my dad says it all the time. but until tonight I never really realized it.

I was sitting outside thinking about something, and all of the sudden, I just said to myself, "Jo, you are so immature. just shut up about this. you always get yourself into this. just shut up about it already."

some people might think I'm crazy for talking to myself. I probably am. some people might say that it's the devil attacking me or something. but I know my heart, and I know that was me saying that. and I literally felt myself cower down and shut up. and you know something else? it really hurt. maybe I'm just sensitive. I dunno. but I do know that I do that all the time. I just tell myself I'm stupid, because I know it'll stop my complaining. but after awhile you kind of begin to believe that you really are stupid.

and that's where satan comes back into play.

words get whispered into your ears against your will.

worthless.
worthless.
worthless.

you will never be anything more than this.

but you know what? God doesn't have that same point of view about my life.

I gave my son for you; you were bought at a price. you are NOT worthless.
you are not worthless.
you are not worthless.
you.are.not.worthless.

I know I'm not the only one that satan plays mind tricks on. I know others feel this way.
Maybe you feel this way. Yeah, you.
But I have news for you. news that satan isn't gonna like. news that I'm going to rub in HIS worthless face.
you aren't worthless.
you
are NOT
worthless.