Chances

I'm reminded over and over again how blessed I am to have a God that gives out chances time and time again. I'm blessed that I have a God that "began a good work in me and will be faithful to complete it." Because if I didn't have that other chance, if I never changed or got closer to God, if He never completed what He started-

I'd be just another burned out candle.

And to be honest I think I want to burn all the way down to the end of my wick, until God says "Hey Jo. I think it's time for what you've been waiting for." I want to be so on fire for God that NOTHING and NO ONE will be able to change my mind.
Unfortunately, I make mistakes.
And if God's still forgiving me after I do this junk again, I'm sure hoping he's got something big for me.
Cause after all this failing and disappointing not only Him, but the people around me, I'm sure ready to do something worth while. Something right.
Because honestly, I don't want to live a pointless life.
Do you?