worth.

my biggest critic is me.

people have said that to me before. Coach Nagel tells me that all the time. my dad says it all the time. but until tonight I never really realized it.

I was sitting outside thinking about something, and all of the sudden, I just said to myself, "Jo, you are so immature. just shut up about this. you always get yourself into this. just shut up about it already."

some people might think I'm crazy for talking to myself. I probably am. some people might say that it's the devil attacking me or something. but I know my heart, and I know that was me saying that. and I literally felt myself cower down and shut up. and you know something else? it really hurt. maybe I'm just sensitive. I dunno. but I do know that I do that all the time. I just tell myself I'm stupid, because I know it'll stop my complaining. but after awhile you kind of begin to believe that you really are stupid.

and that's where satan comes back into play.

words get whispered into your ears against your will.

worthless.
worthless.
worthless.

you will never be anything more than this.

but you know what? God doesn't have that same point of view about my life.

I gave my son for you; you were bought at a price. you are NOT worthless.
you are not worthless.
you are not worthless.
you.are.not.worthless.

I know I'm not the only one that satan plays mind tricks on. I know others feel this way.
Maybe you feel this way. Yeah, you.
But I have news for you. news that satan isn't gonna like. news that I'm going to rub in HIS worthless face.
you aren't worthless.
you
are NOT
worthless.